Amazing the difference a year can make. 2012 might have been the worst year of my life. Everything that could go wrong, pretty much did. In debt and looking like no way out. My father’s health in decline, include a near death experience. Absolutely depressed and wondering if there was any point to going on.
Before 2013 began, I made a promise. I’d stop feeling sorry for myself, I’d take control of my life, tackle my problems head on; instead of retreating and hiding. Cut out the people and habits that were bringing me down and really start living life.
It wasn’t easy!! Sacrifices had to made. Ending up selling the only home I’ve known and having to move to another end of the city. Used the money to pay off all outstanding debts and downsized to Condo.
When you’re a bit of a shy introvert, it takes a lot to let people in. So it took a lot of courage and soul-searching to stop talking or trying to contact family and friends, who didn’t deserve my love or care. Sometimes you have to leave people behind, to move forward; as clichéd as it sounds.
In May with my finances, my home and my father’s health all stabilizing. Decided to join various Meetup groups that interested me and an online dating site as well.
Sometimes my social anxiety got the best of me. But I forced myself to go to various events and on dates.
Kind of discovered, that I’m happy single. It doesn’t mean I’ve given up on love. But I’m not going to let my relationship status define me. If I meet someone, awesome. But I’m going to dwell on it and feel depressed either.
The best thing to happen. Was I found a few Meetup groups that I liked and I’ve been going out more. Instead of hiding behind a book or watching Netflix/YouTube all the time.
I can honestly say, for the first time in a long time, I’m kind of Happy.
But as great as this year has been. I know I still have a lot of work to do. I have a few goals and projects that I want to work on and I get wait to get started.
Here’s to 2014 being better that 2013!!
I hope that you have a Safe, Health and Happy 2014 :)